English, Education, Solo, Literacy
After 2 years, 2 terms, and an incredibly difficult day on thursday, I have left my first post in teaching, at Cramlington Learning Village.

I've no doubt that leaving was the right thing to do, but it didn't make the incredibly touching shows from kids, colleagues and parents any easier to look past. It was this that I found truly overwhelming, and this that has really shaken me quite a lot since breaking up.

This feels like a weird post, but it's one I think that one or two NQTs might find interesting as they begin to close in on their first year in the job. If I could go back and speak to my NQT self, I would say the following:

1. Stop trying to become the teacher you want to be overnight. I went into CLV with a load of ideas about who I wanted to be and it served only to slow my own progression. I would tell myself to take it lesson by lesson, day by day, and work only on very specific aspects of each lesson that you want to  get better at, but realise that an NQT is just that- Newly Qualified! A now great friend of mine once told me that it's all about becoming 'unconsciously competent' and this is incredibly important. You can't rush your own development, I would tell myself to stop trying to be something I'm not, and just focus on the relationships and the controllables- what I can do to make this lesson that bit clearer than the last.

2. Find someone you trust to talk about things with.  I was lucky, I had an awesome mentor, and an AST that observed me, who stuck by me from that first (I think pretty poor) observation. These two will remain special to me in a professional sense for as long as I teach, because the bottom line was that the expectations were never ridiculous- they were realistic, achievable, and, above all, negotiated. I felt always able to speak to these two people about my failings, to put them into perspective, and to help me move on. 

3. You're right- it's about relationships! I would tell myself that I was right from the off about relationships- I was bowled over and cried at the words of some of the kids and parents on my last day, and these kids, I hope, went with me from day one because I wasn't scared to make a fool of myself or put on a silly voice for a character- I would tell my NQT self that you were right- go with the urge to develop relationships, it makes life easier, enjoyable, but above all, gives the students something to feel good about when they come through your door, which can only help achievement. One caveat to this is be careful to draw the line with the students though- but this doesn't have to be a huge, face threatening deal.

4. Stop worrying yourself- All I ever wanted was to impress. Mainly colleagues and senior management. I admit that. But when it came down to it on my last day, none of it mattered, and I will be absolutely sure to take this feeling with me in the future. Where I had always tried no matter what was with the kids, and to improve my teaching, and the rest is, really, a pleasant by-product. Sir Alex Ferguson deals with money at Man Utd so well- he simply says to the kids coming through that if they're at this level, they'll never have to worry about money so stop being greedy. That's where I went wrong, I was greedy in a sense- I should have focussed on doing the job I loved doing. I would tell myself to stop worrying about what everyone's thinking of your teaching and your ideas, and just enjoy it. I wish I'd just let go and trusted those around me earlier. 

Rather than thinking about what I'm bringing to my post as a Lead Learner/Teacher of English (I keep forgetting the title), I want to see what others can give me and what I can learn from them as well. I'm loving the chance to have a few days before putting together a formal plan for my new post, which I'm incredibly excited about, but I will never, never forget my first post, and all the wonderful things I experienced there.

03/30/2013 11:41pm

This article sounds like me! I have just completed my NQT year. It was filled with tears and anxiety. I am a perfectionist and very hard on myself. Every new idea we had as a school, I had to try and use. Until...I realised that my lessons were the most important. The combination of a great mentor and a great headteacher has helped me survive my first year of teaching. My observations were supportive and helped me move forward. I have a great class and supportive parents. Lots of good memories to share of my NQT year

Andy Sammons
03/31/2013 1:42am

Nice to know it's not just me!!! Strange how much it gets to you though isn't it? Thanks for reading!


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